How do not love you and miss you, beautiful sun,
If even when you don’t see me you take me in your heart,
If your words are a caress that makes me feel better,
When your tears evaporate they take away my pain.

How do not have you in my mind all day?,
If you are the only being in the world that motivates me,
You are the reality that makes a reality of my existence,
Because after knowing you I was nothing but a shadow.

And you arrive like a spring so bright and beautiful,
When my strength almost ended you gave me life,
In little words to my heart you revive this dying soul,
And with your sincerity I regain my dreams, my ideas.

These are the moments when I wish an eternal life,
Just to know the smile hidden at your soul,
To shake my heart with your divine look,
It doesn’t matter if the whole world dislikes me.

You are the sincere love I want to find,
You are the real friendship I need,
We don’t need any matter if we have a soul,
If you are by my side time and distance don’t exist.

All my dreams were too much for this life,
All this life is so beautiful but disappears,
At least for me there is no more time,
Suddenly all I have are just fears, pain, tears.

What can you do when destiny is against you???,
You fight and fight again but always loose,
Even when your hands are full of blood,
Because you try to hold to the blades of life.

But at the deepest of your heart there is,
An almost fading light that makes you resist,
Some call it hope and some call it courage,
Then you learn is just your humanity inside.

I would try to create a new dream to live,
I would try to find a new love, a new smile,
There are many hearts alone just like mine,
But at the end loneliness is a state of mind.

A dark night. I wish to take out my heart and squeeze it with all my strength,
To take out all the hate that has been accumulated for so many years,
Cause is undeniable, if you are a human being hate comes within,
So inevitable as existence and live at chaos day after day.

But I learn that hate destroys the mind and shorts existence,
For sometime I live a life as a caged beast full of rage,
Dreaming of tear away the soul of those who left me dead alive,
But I just became the prisoner of those I so much hate.

Now all of a sudden I kill that beast full of rage,
So in my life I can write in a white new page,
I will burn all the sadness I used to have inside me,
I will take from now on real decisions for my future.

And it depends on each of us to hate, love or forget,
Every decision is hard to take but that´s life made out,
Hate usually corrupt the soul and the heart infects,
Love and forgiveness make us forever and ever free.

Don’t be a prisoner of hate,
Don´t be a slave of rage,
All that will leave you alone,
And there is something you deserve,
For you deserve to be alive,
So live your life and be free !!!.

At last it seems eternity is at my hands…
Even when I don’t know how much it lasts,
Because if I learn something , is this truth,
Somehow everything I have, everything I own,
All disappear in a cloud of pain destiny blows,
My body has absorbed the blood of so many people,
And I know this can be terrible for everyone,
But that was the only way to stay alive,
Something many people don’t understand or believe,
But all that blood helps me to still be here,
And I have seen real monsters among humanity,
I have felt the stupidity of evil human hearts,
I have seen children and people die at war,
And in my brief eternity all I know is chaos,
I have suffered and immense amount of pain,
My veins burn trying to end all this suffering,
Electric waves go trough my nerves and muscles,
Experiments to have a better way of life,
An always lost effort or at least until now,
My legs are still devoured by a thousand insects rage,
Invisible nails enter one by one in my back,
My abdominal muscles are united by stitches,
A catheter drain putrid blood from my back,
And I can’t move for this little metal stake,
It drains my energy and my wish to live.
How many demons call themselves humans? ,
Many of them transform my little eternity,
And they have created this monster I never want to be,
Now I live in a cave so dark, so cold,
Society kill the man once have a name, a site,
And waiting for death my body is getting old,
Somehow I know eternity is really inside me,
Cause I feel so many things that just never cease,
This solitude that makes me talks to the air,
This sadness caused by my lover’s broken promises,
This physical pain that makes me loose my mind,
So yes, I have been blessed by destiny evil touch,
But the strangest thing is I still want to be alive,
I have this stupid faith in create a new life for me,
A life where my eternity is not so painful,
A life where people stops killing each other,
But reality strikes so hard it makes me bleed,
I just try and lie to myself telling me everything is fine,
But the scars all around make me remember the truth,
My eternity becomes so sad,
My eternity for sure won’t last,
Maybe this is nothing but a dream,
A dream within a dream,
And the dream becomes a nightmare.

Butchered !, I’ve been butchered,
Butchered by the doctors that try to save me,
My body full of scars is now the living proof,
All the functions that now cease are so true.

Butchered !, I’ve been butchered,
Butchered by a society that leaves me to die,
Cause different is no good, different becomes a freak,
I’m dead to a society that kill the ones that doesn’t fit.

Butchered !, I’ve been butchered,
Butchered by the lovers who said will love me forever,
Cause love disappear when you become a charge, a fever,
If you don’t have enough money you’ll be forever alone.

Butchered !, I’ve been butchered,
Butchered by the family that said will be always by my side,
Cause if you don’t produce you’re nothing but a pain,
A sackful of waste ready to be expulsed out of the family.




Butchered !, full of scars in my heart , body and mind,
Alone as the farthest star on the dark cold universe,
Sad as the living dead waiting for the real dead,
But with this fire inside, ready to burn and fight .

Fight just one more time.